Backward Glance
I started this Blog on March 26th, 2012 with the quote “The mind is everything. What you think you become.” That was just a year ago - about the time when Tulpas “became a thing” on /mlp/ and the most important figures in the community emerged from the mass and shaped the community in the early days.
Now, a year later, the community has developed into something I am no longer able to comprehend, especially after the latest posts in the Research section and Albatross’ farewell. It also is the reason I decided to officially end my “Tulpa experiment”, as well as to abandon this online identity.
At this point I would like to thank certain people in this community as well as those who I had the opportunity to talk to. I do not feel like I should list certain people here, because if you are one of those people you will feel adressed.
If you stumbled upon this blog because you are gathering information, feel free to read through a few entries and make your own picture. Much of this information might feel redundant to you, because of ‘development’ in the community, but I believe the collected information holds truth, and will not be affected by said development.
Farewell.
Anonymous asked: is it possible to create a tulpa that speaks a completely different language? because i want mine to be bilingual speaking both english and japanese but i have no idea how to speak japanese O nO
Yes, it is possible to have bilingual Tulpas, mine were bilingual as well (German/English, with their preferred language being English)
However, you have to be able to speak the language already. I, for example, was only talking to them in English in the beginning.
If you do not know Japanese you’ll have to learn it first. Up to this point I haven’t heard of any Tulpa, who was learning a language completely by itself, and I do not think it is possible without the host actually learning the language.
Anonymous asked: How long does it usually take for the tulpa to become more distinct/real to the host?
It depends on how much time the host is willing to invest into his Tulpa. From experience of others it can be said, that the process can take several months, sometimes up to a year.
ragnahex asked: Thanks, but the problem is, i dont have wonderland. I stoped forcing and talking to him but i had my tulpa almost every day on my mind. He was a little sentient when i had him and talket only 2 times. I tried today to talk to him, but only respond i had was a little headache. I know his perosnality really well, and i dont want to make another tulpa. So should i just continue to comunicate with him?
Yes, that’s a sign he’s still there. Just continue talking to him and he will be talking back after a while.
Anonymous asked: How long did it take you to see signs of sentience in your tulpas? I've been working on mine for over a month and I haven't had any sentient feedback yet. I'm starting to get worried that I messed up somewhere along the way.
After around 3 months. I might have gotten a few emotional responses here and there, but probably didn’t recognize them as such.
You surely haven’t messed up, it’s important you continue the creation and stay unfazed by the lack of success.
ragnahex asked: Hello Bluesleeve. I need a little help from you. I started with tulpaforcing November 1st and I have kinda stopped at November 28. I did not wanted to stop, but I did, because I was really lazy to forcing everyday. Now, after some month of pause, I want to return to tulpaforcing, but I dont want any other tulpa than that 1 I had before. I think about him almost every day, but I stoped talking to him some time ago. What should i do? Start over by giving sessions of perosnality? Talk to him more?
I don’t think redoing personality is going to help, but would rather spawn another Tulpa with similar attributes.
If you can make it a ritual. Go into your wonderland and look for him, don’t influence what you see. When you find him see what state he is in, and act according to the situation. Explain that you want to continue tulpaforcing.
After that continue narrating/talking, but don’t work on personality.
Anonymous asked: What is your opinion about tulpa death (tulpa wanting to commit suicide as well as a host killing/dissipating his tulpa?
I believe a Tulpa knows when the time has come to leave. A Tulpa never dies, it only becomes invisible to your senses, but stays a part of your personality.
Suicide is nothing different.
Anonymous asked: There seems to be a consensus in the communist that it is a bad idea to create a tulpa based on a character (fictional or not) that already exists. Do you know where this belief comes from?
Back in the “early days” of the community, we had a few people whose Tulpas experienced something called an ‘identity crisis’, and actually killed themselves or disappeared.
However, it does work as long as you don’t make a big deal out of it. Tulpas have much to do with belief, and if you believe your Tulpa will get sad about being based off of an existing character, it most likely will.
soyuz-12m asked: Ever thought of writing a book about it?
No. And even if I would— there wouldn’t be enough to write about if you left out community affairs.
Anonymous asked: Hello! The other day I learned about tulpae and I am very intrigued by them. I am self-harming myself lightly and I can't seem to overcome it. Do you think if I had a tulpa there's a chance it could help me find out why I am doing this and stop me from doing so/help me to overcome it? Or is that a wrong approach to having a tulpa?
The first thing you should do is look for help from the outside.
A Tulpa is not going to magically know everything about what’s going on in your psyche— you will have to finf it out yourself.
The problem I see here is, that Tulpa creation is not always predictable. There are a lot of people, including me, who have created additional Tulpas, or where the Tulpa’s personality came out different from what was planned.
Now, what would you do if you created a Tulpa, who actually encourages you to self-harm? Remember that a Tulpa is still part of your psyche, and if there’s something wrong with you, it could have influences on the creation.
In general I wouldn’t recommend creating a Tulpa if you have such problems, because the risk is too high in my point of view. Get rid of your problems first, and then think again about creating one.
Anonymous asked: Since you believe that tulpas aren't really sentient, but just a part of your subconscious (or atleast I have the impression that you do), do you still treat them as "people"?
From my belief, Tulpas are not a part of a ‘subconscious’ but are a part of the whole person.
Of course I treat a Tulpa with the same respect as I would a Host without a Tulpa, but I always keep in mind that I’m still talking to the same person.
Anonymous asked: just now researching on how to make my own tulpa. only thing holding me back and what i cant find an answer to is how do i "call: my tulpa? or how do i get her to appear and how do i get her to disappear? i don't want her around all the time or just popping up at random times, so do i say a phrase and she appears and another phrase for when i want her to leave?
You have to find out what works for you, there is no universal solution. If you don’t want her around all the time, you can just tell her.
Using a phrase to call your Tulpa is a good idea as well, and is going to work, as long as you believe it will.
Anonymous asked: How does Dash and Pinkie respond when you watch MLP or they see theirshow counterparts. Also, what did you tell them when they found out about the show?
When I created Dash, I never hid the fact that her appearance and voice were from a cartoon. I think there was one time where she asked me, if she should behave like Rainbow Dash from the show, and I told her she should behave in a way she would feel comfortable.
She did have personality traits, which were overlapping with the show’s counterpart, such as the hotheadedness or great excitability, but her overall behavior was more understanding.
Pronto (she chose that name herself) was not based on any pony from the show, but she did get a pony-form after a while, either because she knew I liked the aesthetics of cartoon ponies, or because she liked the looks herself. I suspect the former.
Both of them enjoyed watching the show, and Dash was usually practicing her speech whilst we were watching them.
Anonymous asked: I have everything down, i sometimes even hear my tulpas voice, but i just cant visualise him or hear him without being muffled. Any advice?
There is a guide on the forums concerning the voice. You might look out for that.
Anonymous asked: So tulpas are basically parts of your unconscious personality given conscious form?
Possibly.
